Memories

Perhaps the best way to forget about something is to obsess over it. Think about nothing else for a week. It sort of makes sense, in a twisted, counterproductive way. Sure, during the time you're thinking about it your life may suck. Drowning in thoughts and memories you so badly want to forget so they don't come back to you, at least for awhile, with no way to get out. Because once you start, there is no turning back. They keep pouring out of your head, extra-vivid, as if they've been waiting for the moment to be released to the front of your brain. After you obsess over it, you get tired, and the thoughts blur around the edges until they finally fade to the back of your brain again, dulled from over-use. Only then do you realize you could see them one more time, crystal clear, even if it kills you.